PuRpLe LoVeR

2010-01-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

O's/CCA.

give us something to look forward to.
make us all remember those passion we once had.
make us stay as a whole.
make us go back to the "last-time".
make everything go back to those used to be.
make us all change back to normal.
make us all stop changing.
3 more months to go.

i feel like i'm going to my old self again.
now, with no one to talk to, it's getting worse.

2009-11-17T01:08:00.000-08:00

don't go away

Looking through your eyes，theres nothing to hide
And youre no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high？
Cant stop the tears from fallin
We used to be so fine when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breakin

Dont Donvt go away
Baby, dont you know，I miss you so
Dont Dont go away
Ive never been on my own before

Wooh Oh
Cant you hear me just take me with you
So dont dont go away

Dont Dont go away
Baby, dont you know，I miss you so
Dont Dont go away
Ive never been on my own before
So wont you feel my heartbeat once more

2009-10-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

you talk to me
you speak with me
don't sink before you rise baby
don't fade away
you hesitate
you seem to wait
for all the time we had
feels like a world away
who's to say
we'll be ok
we're gonna make it through the night
don't wanna wake up in this state
i just want us both to smile
cause we're the same
and i know that we'll never change
look i bought your favorite ice cream
i don't wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
i don't know if we're gonna be the same
baby just talk with me
cause i want you to stay here with me
i want you to stay here with me

2009-10-25T20:16:00.000-07:00

there's time when people like things and hate things.
it's when you got it then you hate it,
it's when you didn't have it then you love it.

back from STC camp.

now that i'm miss out on so many things, i hate myself even more.

2009-10-15T06:05:00.000-07:00

as i sat at the stairs, and looked at the field.
many different memory came back .

i suddendly think of batam.
"can i have this dance?"

think of area games day,
"wo men shi zui yao yan de NCO!"

think of 50th anniversary.

think of how last time duties used to be tat fun.

think of the difference between now and then.

it's all different, admit it.
it is.

tonight, marks the end of late night mugging.

2009-09-29T03:55:00.000-07:00

okay, it's been long since i last blog.
yeah, kind of, didn't have the mood for it.
hmm, exams is coming round the corner.
sometimes i just feel like giving it up.
let it be, fail or no fail.

things had been going through my mind.
alot of things in fact.
things tat NEVER cross my mind before.

i've been thinking about how my studies would end up.
i've been thinking about how my np life would end up.
i've been thinking about how's life gonna be without you.
i've been thinking whether POP will end up like campfire.
i've been thinking about how does mole concept work out.
i've been thinking is all of this wat i wanted.
i've been thinking about whether i'm letting anyone down.
i've been thinking about how did i manage to not sleep.
i've been thinking about how stress manage to pile up tat fast.
i've been thinking about whether i'm strong enough to pass through everything.
i've been thinking about wat's left for me to remember about, tat place and you.

sometimes, i just feel like giving up.
maybe,all i need is a word of encouragement.
maybe, everything won't work.

2009-09-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

i thought i could hold it till school.
i thought i could hold it till i reach home.
i thought i could hold it till everyone is away from me.

sorry, but i can't.

you took my heart away.

Staring at the moon, so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
Trapped to die and never scream
But you, saw me through
Walking on a path of fear
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this hottest stone
You take my hand to guide me home
And now, I'm in love
You took my heart away
When my whole world was Grey
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You've become the meaning of my life
Faring in a world so cold
You are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now, I'm in love
Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We'll never be alone
You've become the meaning of my life
You've become the meaning
You've become the meaning of my life

2009-08-09T22:29:00.000-07:00

went to NDP with shermane yesterday.
NICE (:
haha xD.

MATHS TEST TML~
study study!

never let anyone know wat's wrong with you, cause in the end, you will only make tat person as sad as you.
never cry in front of other, so they won't know wat's happening.
put on a brave front, act like nothin happen.
someday, somehow , people will know the truth and i won't have to act anymore.

2009-07-26T03:25:00.000-07:00

wake up damm early today,
or should i say i didn't sleep?

anw, went to puggol end with cousins.
haha, funny XD

shall upload the pictures next time.

friday had the first np training since H1N1.
wasn't really get used to it.
let's hope i DO get back to the mood then.

just let me die there.

2009-07-09T03:09:00.000-07:00

today was a great day for sleeping.
lesson was like so longggg today la. ):

i totally feel like sleeping.

heather like teach me hand sign la (:
to allow us to talk across the room without people knowing wat the hell we talking.
*smirks*

andandand,i'm like catching up on maths already.
coordinate geometry (:
it's rather easy as compared to other topics for me.

when things seem to be good, something bad always came out of no where.
living in this world just seem rather pointless.

every time when i miss you, i talk to the stars, it acts just like you, far away and never reply.

2009-07-04T06:25:00.000-07:00

4th JULY!

TODAY IS HB'S , *SHERMANE*, BIRTHDAY.
okay,anw,hb is just an inside joke.

SHERMANE,
BE PROUD NEXT TIME WHEN U CALLED YOU A *****.
u know why yourself (:
thanks so much for all the heart to heart talk we have.
thanks, love.

today was bored.
most of my frens felt the same,
cause they were like msging me,
"SEOKKEEE! i'm bored."
first time i received so many texts tat is about the same topic la.

i don't feel like going back anymore,
knowing tat i'm no longer important to them, knowing that you are no longer there for me.

2009-06-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

haha,
today start right programme Mr er said try to make blogger a every day thing.
I'm good, so i listen to him.
haha.

let me see, the whole class change their sitting arrangement.
total sucker.
i'm like right at the very end la.
at least i got zhiyu with me.

i'm still nt used to school life yet.
like not yet.

after school went to eat and slack with shermane, heather and lydia.
after tat went to shermane house tat swing there slack.
supppppper long never go touch until tat swing le lah.
had competition with lydia to see who can swing the highest.
~draw~
then heather with shermane.
shermane won,
like duh , heather don't even know how to swing by her own.
haha

i enjoyed my days to the fullest,
don't let me fall back to the old days.

2009-06-27T01:20:00.000-07:00

back from CIP today.
didn't sleep again yesterday.
wth.

on the way, i was telling sher about the prawning thing.
she say we were damm evil.
haha.
then after tat she said she wanna go.
haha.

our job was to give our food ration to different group of people.
kind of a slack job though.
haha.
with those adults helping, is much much easier.
and I'm damm fascinated by the van's auto door.
*asked the rest*
and the organizer thought we were sec 1s
*we blame wen qi for it*
haha.

every time i came back, there's nobody to greet.
every time i wanted to do something, there's nobody i can find.
every time i'm sick, there's nobody beside me.
every time i wanted to ,at least, see you guys, it's so impossible.
i wanted you to just tell me the truth, "wat's going on?"
i wanted every thing to stop happening.
i wanted every thing to be back to normal.
i never want to feel like this any more, any longer.

i don't wan to stay any longer.
i don't wan you to say another word.
i don't wan to cried another tear for you.

2009-06-26T05:17:00.000-07:00

holiday is so coming to an end ):
haven been sleeping for days ):
feel so tired everyday , but just can't sleep.
i don't even know why.
so, next time if u see me fall alseep, just don wake me up.

went school for the "test" thing today.
i totally gonna flunk my chemistry la.

then went to prawning with wan ting and hillary.
my first time prawning leh.
not bad uh.
fun , but the song played there was rather ...
i enjoyed my time there.
haha, didn't expect it to be that fun,
thought it will be rather boring, kind of like fishing tat type.
but it was much more fun.
haha
i wanna go there again (:

sometimes when i say "oh, I'm fine" , i just want someone to look me in the eyes & say " tell me the truth".

2009-06-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

okay, it's been like donkey months since i last updated.
*shhhhh, I'm trying to exaggerate here*

anw, this holidays is like equals to no holiday la.
like totally can?
haha.
half of the holidays are gone and i only enjoyed it 1 quarter of it.
suck right?

and my homework , is...
half done.
haha
surprised?

XD

SEC 3s ENERGIZERS'OHNINE!

2009-05-19T02:09:00.000-07:00

haha!
i change my blog skin!
surprised?!?!

anw, i isn't tat into blogger.
so don expect me to update everyday. ):
haha!

okay. (:

2009-04-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

MANY THINGS TO UPDATE!
gonna be a long post :]

FIRST UP.. ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY ON 17//4/09
one year Le,
thanks for being there ya?
we will make it up one day.
i don care if u cannot make it :]]
u must make it :]
see ya soon :]

THEN , NPAP'OHNINE~ 18/4/09
we have been training for tis very day for months.
it was indeed a success.
never felt as proud.

first,meet hillary they all for lunch at ljs.
then bused to serangoon garden sec school.
changed to half u and took another bus to HTA.
after reaching there, we march to our bulk.
*SUPPORTING CONTINGENT 2*
we were the first few schools to reach.
place our full u there , brief abit and fat sir gave us his present..
then rehearsal again, then march back bulk to change into full u.
we got 30 mins to change and polish shoe and stuff lah.
in air conditional room leh.not bad ar.
then the whole thing start.
we were kind of nervous like 2 mins before the whole thing start.
then one of the instructors was like joking with us.
he told tat the audience's side is use photoshop make big big then cut & paste out de.
then the clapping and all is sound effect.
feel much better after a laugh.
then march out.
we did a great job :] !
then halfway through the parade , saw one whole stretch of white clothes ppl walking up the grandstand.
then realise is hweemay they all.
hahas.
then the march past and march off.
daryl they all shouted :
"SEOK KEE"
then didn't got the chance to shout Hillary and Edmond's name cause we march too fast.
after march off.
felt instantly happy, but sad afterwards.and i don know why.
lols!
then march back bulk for photo taking and changing of uniform.
then bused back serangoon at 9 plus.
reach hougang at 10 plus then met hweemay they all for dinner.
hahas.
then reach home with mum's nagging.
hahs.

we cherish each other for the past 1 year.lets do tat for the rest of the years.

2009-04-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

HONGKONG TWINNING'OHNINE !

my buddy went back to hongkong already,
at this time , 10.47 , they already talking to me on msn.
LOLS!

heather & sook chin's buddy make me cry lah.
using her hand written letter.

hahas.
will update the picture next time ya?

today is so not a good day.
many things happen.
and it isn't good.

2009-04-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

my hong kong buddy is RICHHH!!
hahas.
u will know why when u see him.
yeah, it's a "him".

and he damm act cute!
he "gave" me his levi's watch lah.
and i "gave" him mine.
skip half of LCE and brought him down for lunch.
craps & acted retard. :/
then they went to ZOO without the student host.

after school, stay back to clean the window and do something about the notice board.

thanks heather , jun qiang & shermane :D

the window totally sucks!
lols!

then went to have lunch at KFC .
shermane and i was like keep hinting each other to play a trick on heather.
then she damm scared.
keep shifting her seats away from us.
then she keep saying :
"look at you all two de cheeky face"

LOLS!then after we DID tat trick le she still ask :
"what are you two trying to do?!"

LOLS lah.
then she was like "hiding" from us lah.
super funny !
:D

2009-04-01T06:14:00.000-07:00

I PASS MY 2.4KM!
and shermane & Chloe , THANK ME!
hahas.JOKING ! :X

after school went to do the newscast project, with dominic's help
shermane and chloe's part got 16 NG!!
total craps lah.
spent super lot of time on them.
hahas.
jiangnan is a life savior.
he came just in time.
hahas.

chloe's OMG super cool lah.

2009-03-31T07:03:00.000-07:00

okay , I'm like here again
:/
well, I'm suppose to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYDIA, KELLY & KAI YANG

LOLS!
today went to eat sushi with Lydia & the rest.
chloe was insane today.

then after tat went for tuition.
shermane talk SUPER loud tat every sentence she talk , everybody turn at look at her.
&&& the best part is... SHE DON REALISE IT !
hahas!

i don need an answer , i don need to give one too

2009-03-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

okay, I'm here to revive my blog.
*blink blink blink*
done! :D hahas.

firstly,
THANK YOU ENERGIZERS ,
for all those things tat you guys did for me.
thanks for the whipped cream on MY BODY
thank SHERMANE LIM for helping me wash the shirt and dry it with cold air.
:X

secondly,
my holiday isn't a holiday.
i guess everybody thinks so.
:(

thirdly,
i finally can sleep till 8 in the morning tml!
is like..FINALLY!
:D
hahas.

*yellow panther*

2009-02-08T03:39:00.000-08:00

i don know if u ask tat question,
i should really answer tat,
or to keep everything a secret from you.

i didn't give up.
i just wanted to do it.

I'm so sad and depressed
all I want to do is rest.
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight.

I didn't know what to say
I didn't know how to put it
So I tried to hide it

Love is not a game.
If you think it is, then you're not playing it right.

Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face,
but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.

2009-02-02T04:46:00.001-08:00

TODAY IS A SUPER BORED DAY!

2009-01-14T05:13:00.000-08:00

school is so far so good.
and ya.
with sher and him , it's better.
like much much kind of better.
lols.
and maths kind of sucks recently.
and i got to reach sch at ard 6 everyday starting tml.
:(

my aunt dog came by just now ,
a jack russel named " mini"
he is only 2 weeks old.
& is damm small lah.
is even smaller then ruixi
and for those who never seen ruixi before,
ruixi is very small too.

TAGS WILL BE REPLY SOON !

2009-01-03T00:38:00.000-08:00

HELLO 2009 , GOODBYE 2008 !

it's only the 6th day and I'm missing 2008.
seriously.
many things happen.
be it good or bad.
there is still things to remember.

resolution for the year :
STUDY HARD , PLAY HARD.

esp with shermane in my class , woahhhhhhh
jealous? LOLS.

stayed back yesterday until 4 plus 5 just for the psls in my class.
cause the form teacher said the obs thing must be given to them by tat day.
so stayed until i saw them.
thanks for the accompany :D

& to think tat i still love you.

2008-12-18T04:09:00.000-08:00

POP is comin.
and so is SAL's party.
and so is genting trip.
and so is school reopen.
and so is sec 3 life.

going for duty tml.
then rehearsal.
then going out with energizers.
gonna have fun :D

TAGS REPLIED XD

GYWNETH:lols.is nt emo.is just nt happy.nt the same can?

JOYCE:i saw you today ! XD hahas.damn long nvr see you le lah..

KAIJIE:AHJIE!!! THANKS :D

KAIXIN:THANKS :X I WILL :D

EDMOND:LOLS.HAHAS.OK.and where is my can opener? cs ar you?

JQ:THANKS :D

HILLARU:HAHAS.OK.I WILL WORK HARD DE.

QUEENIE:LOLS.yeah.tat song.

GALVIN:U ar.i don wat to say lah..LOLS. :X

2008-12-13T22:47:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM CAMP !
IT WAS A FUN CAMP!
seriously.

fun times , tough times ,
we been through it all together , tat's wat we are , a squad.

DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH ENERGIZERS'08

2008-12-03T06:30:00.000-08:00

thanks for cheering me up :D

ok.

so there you are.

a little something about you.

and for one thing ,

your craps don cheer ppl up.

your actions do.

tags replied!

XUEQI: TOTALLY CRAPS CAN? XUE ERRRR QI sounded MUCH MUCH nicer cause is i created de.HAHAS.I MISS THE TIMES WHEN WE ARE IN SHEN YANG TOO :(

JIEQI: SURE :D meet up other time yea? :D

JOYCE:yeah , we so long never see each other le. LOLS. :D

KARMILA:ALRIGHT :D

SOOKCHIN: MONDAYYY YEAH ? MUAHAHAS !

KIAJIE: AHJIE ! i don come back turn KEE SIAO can ?

EDMOND: now then u realised? LOLS.and for one more thing , I DON EAT PANEDOL.

HEATHER: HEATHERRR ! 4 YEARS CLASSMATE !

ZHIYU:yeah, miss ? U MEAN K OR S ? lols.

GER: yeah BUNK MATE ?

GWYNETH: LOLS.not funny lorh.must think of others tat is easier to remember de wat.

LIANG: LOLS.u don know wat we talking about de lah.

HAOXIANG:craps.i thought u long long time know already?

2008-11-30T07:16:00.000-08:00

i got to do wat i have to do.
something tat u would not know why i did tat at all.
if u ever notice it.
i did tat for u , my fren.
it wasn't tat hard after all.
but i got to sacrifice our friendship.
but wat u got in return was much better isn't it?

never mind who am i saying this to.
i doubt tat person even knew.
so don be surprise if u don know abt it.

2008-11-27T05:04:00.000-08:00

now I'm left with 3 choice.
SONY ERI X1 , LG VIEWTY , SAMSUNG OMNIA.

went to have a look at all 3 phone.
javier said viewty look totally like a camera.from back view
shermane said it looks bulky.
hillary suggested samsung omnia.

oh goshhh !
lols.
realise javier is a cheapo like edmond today.
just kidding.
we were saying about something.
LOLS.

gotto have a busy holidays now.
seriously.
stuff and stuff keep popping up.
just can't have ONE WHOLE DAY staying home.
i'm trying to keep balanced work each day.
fun and work.
got to work hard for sec 3 too.

education is something tat will make u fell proud someday

2008-11-25T02:32:00.000-08:00

i wanna buy a touch phone.

LG viewty is my first choice.
but i heard is lagging and everything.
so i'm still choosing.

went school today again.
but i was damm late according to shermane.
cause i can't find this and can't find tat.
i bet shermane has a good laugh in the morning.
meet the rest in sch canteen.
and after tat went for tuition.
i had a SUPER tiring time.
like damn tiring.
queenie and shermane was reading "teenage" halfway through the tuition
while me and zhiyu is chionging our maths.
LOLS.

if avoiding do helps , i won't mind.
cause i just wan no one to get hurt.

2008-11-23T05:15:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM BATAM TRIP !

it was TIRING but fun.

the whole hostel look likes a chalet totally.
first day when i went there i was telling my bunk mate tat it's like chalet without POKER.
then the second day i started saying it's like chalet without TV.
and the following days i just forget about saying cause everyone KNEW it.
the school was rather nice.
THE KIDS ARE CUTE.
THE DOGS TOO.
we gave the dogs name ourself.
quite.erm.nice?
LOLS.

first day was emo-ing at night because of NIKE PNG SHAO KIAT !
but they cheer me up by singing "CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE"
hahas.
they were rather ... while singing tat.
seriously.
lols.

second day is when hard labour starts.
we need to move 2000 bricks to another side.
and the guys need to shift sand to the other side.
it's disaster!
but the kids helped us too. :D
they are STRONG !
at the end of the day, our gloves were WET AND DIRTY.
went back to our bunk and washed our gloves.
had fun at night too.
"hot water" & "fork"

lols.

the next day, our gloves is a LITTLE WET BUT CLEAN.

then continue with our work.
manage to finish the road and played a little with the kids.
at night was laughing like mad because of jing yi.
hahas.
then played some games

then went back to bunk.
crapped at bunk too.

then today, when to the school at around 10.

had my shoe in a plastic bag and gave them.

went home with slippers.

had their prize presentation
interact with the kids there for the last time before leaving.
before boarding the ferry back to sin, we got around 2 hours for us to shop.
we ate our lunch at A&W which we were discussing wat it stands for.
then after tat we went sepratly to shop for our things.
meet back at 1.50 for check-in.
waited kind of long.
and the ferry sucks.
It was damm freaking hot.
i think the only air-cooling system is the fan.
which is like DAMM IT.
was sweating throughout the 1 hour.
the rain in singapore DO help.
hahas.
MRT-ED back home.

PICTURES TIME !

2008-11-16T06:59:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WkoJZoyGkk

i miss charitians.again.

i'm going to be just fine.
i'm gonna forget wat u did to me.
i'm going to.

Deep in my heart, I'm suffering, knowing that I've lost you.
On the outside, I'm living, pretending that I've forgotten you

I just want one day to go by where I'm not pretending I'm happy!

2008-11-15T07:02:00.000-08:00

today was a BUSY day.
meet at kopitiam at 6.30 for breadfast with javier , hillary and shermane.
laughed, chatted til 7 plus.
went back to sch and meet with the rest.
and then we were on the way to our unit hike.
had fun there too :D
ate our lunch there too.
nice view there.
then went back sch.
went home pack full u.
rest awhile and went for the sch anni duty.
was doing the carpark duty there.
fun?
u see all sorts of people.
and teachers :D pri sch teachers :DD
hahas.
eat dinner with the rest after duty.
was laughing all the way man.
lols.

i just don know wat u wan to do now.
sometime this sometime tat.
can u just tell me wat to do?
u make me fall in love again.

2008-11-12T00:14:00.000-08:00

choir people left for korea today morning.
queenie called me. :X
you all must be damm jealous rite?
esp.jiangnan
lols.
today went to the batam training.
it was craps.
lols.
camm back home aft the lunch session
was laughing throughout.

i'm sorry tat i said i don wanna see you again.

tags replied

Kaijie: later i come back talk like china ppl ar..lols.u didn't even go try?i thought u gonna try it? u tio food poisoning ar?

zhiyu : just..erm..u know i know? LOLS !

sookchin : i miss you too.i saw u today! :D

joyce:LOLS!?!? did i? oh gosh !

heather: yups.but i kind of miss charity the class name too. ILY!

queenie: my blog is nt dead.i mean officially.LOLS.enjoy your trip singing!

xueqi: xue-er qi nu'er ?!? sounds weird!

jn aka jiangnan:HELLOS :D ! u finish looking at pictures? lols.

2008-11-09T04:54:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling much much better now
craps.
went to school today.
totally had fun with aug jav hill and sher.
laughable bunch of people.
lols.
and we discuss for our POP too.
good job man !
i just don know why like to be around them.
they make my day!
hahas.

andandand, i'm in 3 dil nxt year.
i kind of miss charity classes.
like i've been in charity classes for like 2 years and not like 2 days.
there's got to be some feelings rite?
rong>stop
i'm gonna stop loving you.

2008-11-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

TAGS REPLIED !

HEATHER:hahas.me too.i'm gonna miss you too.thanks for the wishes.
,QUEENIE:i bet you miss me real lot rite?and if sher saw your tag i THINK she is gonna kill you.i'm just kidding abt the zhiyu tat thing. my throat hurts.lols.
LOUIS:yeah man ! PROUD CHARITIANS 07&08 !
LYDIA: yups.sure thing man ! you're so damm invited ! haahas
GER:hahas.we are gonna be millionair there ! haahs.
LIANG SIA:lols.oh.and thanks for the sweets.i keep me awake.lols.
HUINI:hahas.cool man! you actually counted ? hahas.craps.
EDMOND:lols.we were in the same room ??
SALANNE:ORHHHH SAL ! i miss you when i'm there too!
ZHIYU:hahas.you got your present le rite?hahas.
HILLARY:hahas.i knew you miss me !haahas
XUEQI/span>:nu'er ! hahas.my throats hurts like mad larhs.and links is done.hahas.
KAIJIE:hahas.links is done.better go help me find out panedol can cure nt ar..
XINHUI:how can i link you if you nvr give me the url ?lols.you this sotong !
HUIEARM:hahas.linkss mans.i'm going overseas with you again.hahas.

2008-11-04T04:10:00.000-08:00

one good news and one bad news.

good news is ...

SEOK KEE IS BACKKKK!

bad news is ...
i lost my voice, totally.

craps lah.
i lost my voice totally and my second class is comin up.
and gosh,
tat's mean i can't take my second class test with my squad.

arggggghhhhhhhh!
i hate it larhs.

and some more i miss the most fun part of the shen yang trip by staying in the hotel.
cause i'm sick
lols.
the wind there is like damm big.
and the hotel room window is like falling apart sooner or later.
and they use tapes to tape it up.
lols.

and my buddy is real nice.
her name is nice too , 李丹莹
and gosh, i miss studying with her.

i miss the fun there.
i miss my friends there
i miss the time the 24 of us were together.
i miss the temperature.
i miss everything there.
i miss twinning'08

you know how much u make me think when you said you are never going to make me sad?
you know how much it means to me when you say you're gonna make my days happy?
you know how much it hurt me to say "sorry, but we're still frens."
you said you can wait but that's for a long time
cause i still can't forget tat him.

2008-10-31T00:35:00.000-07:00

I'M AT SHENYANG !
it's like freakin cold here lahs.
and we got trick ytd by the teacher here.
saying tat there will be snowing today.
and the first thing i did when i wake up was to check the weather outside
BUTBUTBUT.
it did not snowwww !
gosh!
but it's still cold.
brought quite alot of things le.
so hahas.present is brought.

ok . be back by 3 nov 12midnight.

do you know i miss you so much here?

2008-10-23T23:08:00.000-07:00

I'M MISSING CHARITIANS'08 .
hais.

tomorrow will leave for shenyang for 10 days.
seriously don have the mood lahs.
but anyway thanks weiting for cheering me up
although she's having her O's now.opps.

GOSH!?!?

i can't believe tat i cried while typing ytd post.

tags reply

ryan-LOLS.she's really scared lahs.

dawn-WELCOME :D

EDMOND-hahas.sure :D

shawn-okays.do it when i'm free.

justin-i got say u irritate me mehs?

marc-hahas.ok.changed.

immjoo-okays.

kaka toh-hahas.i look..."great"

2008-10-23T00:41:00.000-07:00

i seriously HATE streaming.
cause it split the whole class up.

i HATE today.

cause it's the last day of 2 charity'08 being together.

why don't we have to be so bonded at the very last day?

today on my way to school was listening to "friends forever"

i was telling myself "it's the last day of 2 charity but we were still in the same sch so i won miss them tat much.so i won cry.it will be like a HAPPY ending"

enjoyed the small party and everything and have some sort of class photo and we were talking picture and was about to "leave".

someone shouted " 2 charity'08 is dead "

and queenie came and hugged me.

i let her hug me of course.

and after tat i look at her and she was crying.

with the nose and eyes red and everything.

and i started to feel like crying
i turn away from her only to found out almost 3/4 of the gals is crying.

and the rest was fighting back their tears.

i can't take it and went to the back of the class and wipe of my tears off and everything.

and because of ivan's "bye" and zhiyu's hug , i cried again.

but this time, i went to the corner seat and sat there and really think about wat's gonna happen next year when half of the class wasn't together?

will we be having fun together?

or we will just ignore each other?

some of the guys were fighting their tears back too.

so much of happy ending ar?

hyper is our name , emotional is the other

thinking of the days in sec 1 where we could nt even do something as a class together and till now the bonded class..

i guess i didn't cherish it enough tat now tat i regret.

Mrs seah.science teacher.

mdm divya.English teacher

ms lim.home econ teacher.co-form teacher

ms goh.maths teacher.

louis.#26."great dancer"

cedrych.#21."king" with salanne.kelly.lydia.

jiangnan.#39."skilled" photographer.

colin.#36.class monster.

nicholas.#28.break dancer.

chenhan.#30.tall guy.he is really tall ok?

marcus.#35.class monitor.

justin.#31.super guai kia.

amos.#18.bochap guy.

2008-10-20T02:26:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh !
it's still like a few more days to school end and everybody is saying "oh , goodbyes "
it kind of affect my mood.
the fun the joy the love we had for each other
i didn't expect it to end so quickly.
arghhh.
i'm so gonna miss the charitians man.
hais.
class chalet would be the last class gathering of this year.
gotto cherish it mans.

still remember in the first day in HIHS.
i'm like the mad scientist with esther.
which is kind of fun.
i miss the time man.

2008-10-19T05:03:00.000-07:00

171oo8
spend my 6th month annivesary just like tat.
spend it with np peeps.
at least it isn't tat bad after all.
but still , sorry.

np training is kind of tough.
got to miss one of the training when i'm in shenyang .
so gotto really train extra hard next week to make it up.

17o4o8 to 171oo8 6 months.

i'm feeling kind of small infront of you.
but u never know
cause you never care.

2008-10-15T05:25:00.000-07:00

just got my flu jab today.
accompany by shermane and hui yan.
hui yan went for the jab too. :D
i'm the first to be jab.
shermane and hui yan seems to be more afraid then i do.
looking at THEIR reaction scare and freak me out.
went for lunch after tat.
shermane was nice to help us carry the food back to the table cause our hand got totally numb.
it was numb until when shermane hit me i didn't even feel a thing.

i hate it when i did tat.
i hate it when i need to advoid you.
i don like tat kind of feeling.
it sucks.
when don't you just get out of sight?
tat way , it will do us both good.

2008-10-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

woahhhhh.
went sentosa today with baby and cousins.
fun manz.
sit the luge for like 5 or 6 times lah.
really.one isn't enough.
then aunt only sit once.
cause she scared of the sky ride but nt the luge itself.
we were like laughing at her luhs.
yup.my cousin is so cute tat when she got her tattoo done( those fake one) the person wan to take photo with her.hahas.she's only 6 but she so cute.
such a cutie pie.
prepared to build a sandcastle with cousin but the sand was hot the weather was hot too.
so.skipped tat.
coffee bean's drink is niceeee :]
hahas.had tat for lunch.lolx.

2008-10-08T04:54:00.000-07:00

fcuker!
trust me , i won't take care of you when u were freakin old.
i will just dump you at the old folks home.
you didn't even play a part to raise me up when i was young, why should i take care of you when you are old?
look at wat you did to break granny's heart?
don talk to me about filial piety when u fucking don know wat's tat.

2008-10-03T22:13:00.000-07:00

mum and dad was super worried about bro nowadays.his army probs lah.the person tat died inside was his new found friend.and way before.the one at tekong.was his friend too.my mum scare tat he will got some kind of fear or something like tat lah.then ya.try to talk about tat subjet infront of him.yup.
wish him all the best man!

2008-09-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

if i tell you tat sometimes i feel like sleeping and never wake up , what will you do ?

2008-09-22T04:13:00.000-07:00

today was the last day of homeecon.i'm gonna miss it man ! i mean the pratical.
and it's also ger birthday.so we celebrated after school.that cake is niceee :D ! esther bake it herself de.she is so super talented lah.the cake everybody say is nicer then outside those bakery shop sell de.ya and ger face was with choco when me and zhiyu was standing beside her.we damm scare we also kana lah.yup.then later rushed to salanne's house.

her house is NICE :P !
but was super far . :/
did the vip presentation there.erm.queenie is surprised tat she needed to be on stage.lol.yup.then played , slack and played and slacked again.hahas.then later took bus home.
we ( queenie and me ) took some pic .with zhiyu and hui yan there guilding us.lol.

*shall upload it nxt time*

l7o4o8 the day i found love

2008-09-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

MY LEG IS FINE !
I CAN RUN !
I CAN WALK !
i only can jump abit but it doesn't hurt me.

but just wearing the protection for faster recovery.
and so , HUINI , my socks is not high ! .
lol.

heard something abt tat particular person.
stupid lah.change things don wanna tell ppl.
forget it man.

i'm not a fool , i'm a fool for you.

2008-09-08T04:53:00.001-07:00

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY , JESSLYN !

had celebration for her today at harmony park.was fun but something spoit the fun.hais.

so now..

PICTURE TIME !

this the birthday card we did !

cakes !!

ok.that all for the day i think.my friendster also have ! lol.

2008-08-31T21:23:00.000-07:00

i'm now at currently at zhiyu house doing my freakin homeecon plus waiting for sook chin and shermane for lunch.they are freakin slow.but nvm i got tat crazy gal with me.hahas.going to chiong pw project today.so.good luck to us man !

thurs and mon ! remember !

2008-08-29T04:05:00.000-07:00

ok PEEPS ! isn't going to blog for the nxt few days or even weeks ba.so yup.i'm sorry.

2008-08-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

np training was fun today.hahas.played some games with sec 1s and CAPTAIN BALL .crap.then was told tat there was a fancy drill com within the sec 2s comin up."apple" hwee may is with my team with javier ,wei yuan, jun qiang and charmaine.then ATC this comin friday ..i'm still nt prepared.but going for the audition for song leader or perhaps emcee..then this wed dry shoot too.i'm gonna go out tml !! hahas.with the pigs and the dogs and SALANNE ! ~compass here i come ~

did you know you ruined my mood today ?
did you know that i didn't wanna see you ?
did you ever know anything i do ?
did you even know tat i had fall for you again ?

you will never know.
love is not about having it.

2008-08-13T06:24:00.000-07:00

today was almost late for school.lol.saw hui and lei in the morning.both hui and me was super jealous of him cause his sch is like super near..lol.then hui took the same bus as me.we were late.well.nt really.hui was late.i make it jus in time.i avoided some place and took a detour to parade square.then lesson *skip skip skip * PE ! pe run for 4 rounds and started playing captain ball.halfway through they say stop awhile cause heather and geraldine went to the toliet.so.yup.we stop.sal and i play passing while waiting.then suddenly geraldine called my name like quite loud it totally scare me lah.so ya.went to check it out..heather injured her hand.cannt really bent and very pain as wat she say.first thing tat come to my mind.* put under running water * i guess it helps ? cause heather feel much better.but the others don get why i did tat.actually...*i don too* lol.then aft sch went out with *ahem* with shermane. can't mention who is it lah.then yup.brought some stuff and went to eat.then aft tat sher and i walked to her house there chit chat awhile.was talking about some stuffs when a group of ppl sat like the nxt table ? then the were fierce for some reason * i think is some misunderstanding* but they were very nice in the end.hahas.then went home..meet with nigel ,lei and hui at basketball court and watch them play.cause of me freakin leg pain cannt play lah.then lei still laugh at me.lol.say wat i like abit like mas selamat cause he also injured leg.lol lah.then nigel send me home again.

TIFFANY !! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU NOW ??
see lah.now hui also gang up with lei and nigel le lah

you are walking in and out of my heart recently.do i have a choice to make sure you stay on or to leave ? i don wanna see you for now.but i really wan you to tell me something.something tat i might wanna hear about.at this point of time.i needed you the most.

2008-08-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

today went to mount elizebeth hosipital again..and it's damm full of people lah..saw the two sisters again..they so damm cute lah..then found out tat one of them check-up is 3 months once..mine half a year once..so nxt check up i might jus see them again..hahas..tat doc damm cute lah..go there and he ask me..

him:"today alot of people hor ? "
me:"ya." (*waiting for his next "question"*)
him:"why ar ?"
me:"i don know leh.maybe sch holiday"
him:"HUH ? today sch holiday meh ? *reaction damn big*"
me:"erm..ya..*abit scared by his sudden reaction*"
him:"good rite ? got holiday .."
me:"erm.ok lah."
him:"ok well.let's start ."
me:"huh.now then start ar ? *first thing tat came out to my mind* "
him:"*laughing laughing laughing* ar then u think talking can cure your illness ar ? "

he super funny lah.remind me of nigel ong.
ya.ytd went to play badminton with cousin and nigel they all..nigel was the oldest with my cousin ..one year older then me.hui and lei was like p6 only ? lol..halfway through cousin left.left me with them.then they play pair.so me and nigel pair against lei and hui.then hui suggested switching partner cause she don wanna pair up with lei .so yup.i was with hui.then lei super funny lah.is his fault then he go scold nigel then nigel also was to talk back but always lost to lei.. so in the end badminton turn to volleyball according to lei and nigel.we will like totally nt playing but laughing lah.then aft tat hui wanted to go homeand we insisted nigel to accompany her cause it's late.like 9 plus.then me and lei continue playing..then lei go home le left me with him..then we talk for like 3o mins or so then he fetch me home too..hahas.i know i know.he's nice..so i reach home like 10 plus going 11.lol.

then national day went out to buy queenie's present with zhiyu..ohwell..it's was so super nice..hahas..then went on our way to the ndp parade..it was like super hot there lah..took lots of photo..then went in settle down the auntie beside me is so nice lah..lol..cause she got umbrella then the weather very hot mah then she say she help me block also..nice rite ? lol.then zhiyu also got ppl help her block the sun but is half of her body only then we will like joking tat ltr she come out like one side white one side black..lol..then aft a while mum call me to ask if there were raining and i said no..then hung up then like aft 5 mins it started raining..andandand.the most funny part is tat zhiyu's fun pack don have an raincoat..damm damm funny..i was like sharing + laughing + protecting my camera from the rain lah..it's like zhiyu is so super heng lah.recent years all don have raining during ndp then she go rain then worst come to worst she got no raincoat..hahas..funny rite ? one in a million lah..hahas..the parade was nice.but the best part is still the fireworks..hahas..and i officially announced tat zhiyu cannt be a driver nxt time..she totally got no sense of direction...lol..joking..

*edited*

2008-08-07T22:24:00.001-07:00

had ndp at school.i did a HUGE mistake lah..when we are suppose to march off..i didn't.then i was like totally lagged..feel totally sadded lah.pratise for so many times also can like tat...but at least other did well and done us all proud..hahas.

today will be the day tat i will fall for you again.
just rmb tat.

2008-08-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

ok well.had ndp rehearsal today aft sch.was quite ok.until something happen (shall not mention it) tat make me sudden no mood lah.then shermane was cheering me up lah.lol.then aft rehearsal went home with shermane.skipped dinner with hillary they all..totally no mood.

i appreciate wat you did to me but i need time to forget abt tat person.
sorry.but you will have to wait.

I have no regrets.
I will never regret loving someone because the feeling of love for five minutes is greater than an eternity of hurt.

2008-08-04T08:58:00.000-07:00

ok.lesson were boring except for the pratical. ZHIYU THE PIG is my partner..hahas.we had a fun time lah..then after sch meet aunt to do something hillary they all for beach road..chatted on the way..reach there.crap abt the "ka li yu tou" joke..hahas.damm funny lah.then hillary was like hitting the two guys..i was like.."lucky i didn't say..lucky i didn't say "..then rush back to hougang for hillary's tuition..

you didn't feel anything.but i do.

hurt by your actions.
hurt by your words.
hurt by your feelings

2008-07-31T06:40:00.000-07:00

oh well.I'M STILL SICK ! today morning damm unwell lah..maria said i look like a " huo si ren" lol..then tat cedrych still make me laugh lah..and i took his wallet and took picture of his "ahem" cute children picture.told him i would put his pic here.but nvm lah.and his name is ~cedrych the woodpecker ~ lol..jus being random.ya.then recess is like drag my whole body down lah.and the weather was like super cold lah.then aft recess was much better.partially thanks to sook chinnn and lydiaaaa ..hahas.then maths i don know why was kind of high ? lol..maybe is because the maths qns i know how to do..lol..then blar blar blar..LCE ! grp up to do project.3 out of 4 LSG is there lah.LOL.then aft sch TUITION ! sher and me walked slowly slowly to hougang mall and back and was wondering why mrs low haven msg us her usual msg "ARE YOU ALL REACHING ?" and we both said like cause she know we comfirm late de.so no need waste her msg.lol..then when ending tuition tat time me and sher was like rushing through chapter 8 "try it "then i left with the last qns then mrs low like sort of notice i finish chapter 8 "try it" like long long before.WA.i damm pekcek lah.lol..then aft tuition.drag myself home again lah.

WE WILL NEVER BE FRIENDS AGAIN ! STRANGER IS WAT YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE WHO I AM TO YOU NOW !

2008-07-30T02:25:00.000-07:00

oh well.wat can i say now ?

I'm sick like AGAIN ?

but i went to school today though i got myself a mc ..maria they all was like scolding me lah..lol..was saying i'm so dumb to go back to school even though i have a mc .but was excuse from pe later on.they played floorball..me and queenie watch.both of us got mc but still came back to school.well.we are the 2 dummies..lol..but lydia make me laugh lah.lol.took lots of pic during class.

this is the one lydia edited herself and is currently my wall paper..lol..i left my phone with her when pe time.so.ya.she is CUTE right ? lol..

i need to put up a strong face to convince you tat i'm okay.but actually,i'm not. so don act like you are the Mr-know-it-all cause in fact.you all not.

2008-07-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

wat the hell is your problem man ?
wat u think u trying to do ?
who do you think you are ?
HOW OLD ARE YOU THIS YEAR ?

many things happen tis few days..really.MANY.is tat small things tat someone jus make so big.wth lah.don even know wat's tat particular person trying to do.making up all those nonsensical thing.wat u thing isn't always the true.if i know who is tat person i think i'm nt gonna forgive tat HIM/HER that easily lah.

2008-07-23T07:18:00.000-07:00

I'M IN LOVE MAN !

muahaha.i'm jus being random lah.lol..i'm in love with music lah.

went to heritage center at police HQ and therefore ended class 15 mins earlier and skip stupid lit test.tat teacher because of 15 mins wan me to waste my 45 mins see them do the test lah.then yup.the security damm tight lah.lol.it was fun though.aft tat have dinner at mac.we have a great time lah.lol.

i thought of you when i see everything today.
i shine like a star when you say " i love you "

2008-07-19T00:59:00.000-07:00

today went for the mangrove thing at the wetland reseveres..half-way through started raining..then all need go back..lol..then lunched at mac with zhiyu and sher..ohya.and i skipped tuition today and PS zhiyu...OPPS.
SORRY ZHIYU.

i'm glad i have you now.
everything seems to be worth it now.

2008-07-14T03:49:00.000-07:00

2008-07-14T03:46:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna study hard work hard !
to prove you wrong to prove every other things else.
wat is wrong with you ?
just **** off lah.
u think your results better then mine ? then fine ! i don care about your retarded marks.
u think now ur working you can scold ppl for being useless ?

get out of my sight u f**king *****.

2008-07-07T05:19:00.000-07:00

went to tan tock seng hosipital today AGAIN.wat the hell lah..it's like everything is repeating itself ...i jus don wan it to happen again..tat incident tat make my body worse and i don wanna take another 3 months rest again.tat is so not gonna happen.at least i hope so.

i don wan things to repeat themself jus like how i don wan myself to fall in love with you again.

2008-07-02T02:29:00.000-07:00

ok.today celebrated shermane's birthday after school.rush to hougang mall to buy her a birthday cake with 2 cha gals.
thanks rachel for stalling shermane's time.and sorry erika for having you to wait.
when sher called me and ask where was i..i didn't even know how to answer her lah.then zhiyu pass the phone to me i pass the phone to queenie and finally sher hung up.we was like..~whew~ lucky she hung up lah.then rush bac to sch and set up everything b4 calling rachel to bring sher down to the canteen.then yup.she saw.she almost cried.ALMOST.tis is the first time she didn't suspect anything lah.cool lor..

you still live there deep down my heart.
it's difficult to forget abt you when i see you almost everyday.
i kindof hate sch because of you.

2008-06-30T01:25:00.001-07:00

ok.well.i'm here to blog again..hahas..many things happen recently.many was about tat particular person.and tat person was unmentionable.np training must buck up le.choosing the supporting contigent's position nxt training with sec 1 2 and 3.kind of nervous.SEC 2'S WORK HARD OK ? we will be in the contigent together. hahas..

why don u tell me a clear answer ?

2008-06-19T22:22:00.000-07:00

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

!

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift....

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

2008-06-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

well.I'M BACK FROM NCO CAMP 2008.it's fun and tiring.but i kind of miss it now..hais..hahas..tml still have SANA course.so yup..tat's it.

loviing you is hard but stopping is even harder.

2008-06-09T06:48:00.000-07:00

well.ever since last Thursday 9.30pm has become the hands-off-house-phone-and-mum's phone- time lah..cause it's the time tat my second brother from army is allowed to call home.well it's the fifth time he called bac.but something happen..after talking to my mother my brother suddenly didn't say anything.then the nxt word he say he sound like he is crying.then my mother was like super worry something happen to him like he was punished by his wadever or he injured himself.but in the end was not..HE MISS HOME.my second brother was tat kind of person tat love his family and frens more then everything so he miss home after 5 days not SEEING us.then my mother started to cry with him.well wat can i say ? SHE MISS HIM TOO.two brothers my mother seems to worried about my second brother more.so sh cannt say much to since she was crying.so she pass the phone to my eldest brother.i must say.my elder brother don miss home when he was at army.maybe a little but nt to tat extend tat to cry on the phone.then aft talking for a long time.he hung the phone.BUTBUTBUT my mother is STILL crying..lol..hahas..i miss my brother too..closest among all man ! we plan to buy a WIL together..hahas..

2008-06-07T21:07:00.000-07:00

ENVY ME ! i watched kungfu panda with queenie and zhiyu yesterday. hahas.i'm on a tight scheduled but i manage to find some time with Queenie and zhiyu.tat means more homework at night aft 12.well.i such a GOOD gal.i stay up till 2 plus 3 for homework ytd.and worse come to worse.it's MATHS.crap lah.but at least i finish some.hahas.then aft tat went for tuition.we were late.tat's of course.4.30 tuition we 4.25 still at plaza sing.nice one right ? lol..

tat perfect person in my life ..

2008-06-03T02:50:00.000-07:00

wat thing you do make me give up on you.u might not even notice tat i did tat.but let me tell you.
I GIVE UP ON YOU.

my heart break when i saw wat u did.it will nvr be the same any more.

2008-05-28T00:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the first session of the old folks home thing.well if u really been there.u will be touched by the smile the old folks make there.well..we were touched.some old folks were truly happy when u went up to her and talk to them even like for 2 sentence.one of the old folks i talk to have tears in her eyes and she was shaking her hands and reaching out to shake ours.she look so nice.

one of the old folks there at ju Eng home.she's nice to us.and suggested taking a photo with us.

~reflection session ~Chloe jia yee Queenie and me have a "great" time avoiding her to look at our hairs.cause got blue colour.opps.and it's super "ming xian".lol.

then after old folks home Queenie and i rush to Mrs low tuition.but we are still late.lol.

the sky after tuition..

Queenie look scary like tat in the dark.lol.

2008-05-27T05:22:00.000-07:00

tat sorry is not helping. i went home without a "hi" for him.i locked myself in my room.i think wat i did is helping me to forget abt everything.but soon all of these things aint gonna work.

2008-05-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

today went hougang mall 5th floor to practice the ~all for one~ dance..hahas...have great fun there..thanks shermane for being the cameraman ..lol.then went home awhile with sook chin and shermane then jiu straight away go for Mr Chin's lesson at kovan.but reach there then know the lesson was cancel so went home with zhiyu and shermane..Monday going school for old folks home thing..then also straight away go for Mrs low tuition..all "dancing people" can wear PE SHIRT and reach school at 8.30 A.M

I'M TIRED ! I'm tired for all those thing i did for you and u didn't knew about it..FINE !

2008-05-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

had a few calls from zhiyu they all at perth ..i'm really happy when they call..i guess i miss them so..is like u suddenly listen to them talking is like they are right beside you ..i guess it's just a feeling ba..days without them is such a waste of time..i wish i can don go sch because i don get to see them even though i go to sch ..but at least i got LYDIA GERALDINE ESTHER HEATHER and QUEENIE.but they are nvr enough in my life..

WHER THE HELL IS SHERMANE AND ZHIYU ??
i miss them.i love them.

2008-05-18T22:12:00.000-07:00

oh well..sports carnival is not a fun thing without shermane , zhiyu and hillary..friday night i called them when they are at airport and leave my handpphone there and not to look at it until they board the plane and left and i saw shermane's message "i'm so gonna miss you" and i hate myself for not looking at my phone and didn't reply her message.GOSH ! it's only like their thrid day there and i miss them alrdy..

2008-05-15T03:17:00.000-07:00

i just hate people tat smokes these days..maybe since last year jiu sensitive to it le..just now aft sch went to space for the chinese games thing lah..not many people there lah..i left half-way through..opps..without queenie notice of cause..if not she is so gonna kill me..perth trip starts tomorrow..i'm so gonna miss those people tat is leaving for perth..
esp..
shermane..
i'm gonna miss her laughter
i'm gonna miss her company
i'm gonna miss her encouragement

zhiyu
i'm gonna miss teasing her
i'm gonna miss her company
i'm gonna miss her talking about her goat

i'm don feel well these few days..
i hate it..

i don like it when u don even care wat happen..
i guess i can't forget you..

2008-05-11T06:58:00.000-07:00

sometimes little words can mean alot..insignificant word change everything..everything tat we once thought it's the way..you tried to gain respest from me..but when u pick up a Cigarette and light it up..u lost that every little respect u get from me..and tat's wat i think you are now..a loser that can't face reality..and you trid to hide when u know i'm sensitive to it..just F*** off lah..

2008-05-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

came back from cousin house ..THEY RAWK MY WORLD ! hehe..then my cousin was seeing my blog when we saw some names at the links at we started talking about all the ppl..hahas..i didn't knew she know some of my friends at first..hahas..and she said one of my friends is super noisy at some times..i was giving her that kind of really-meh face..lol..i am tired there..go there straight after mr chin's tuition..brought their present at heartland too..hehe..then was feeling super sleepy there lah..until we played poker..i lost quite a few match then i switch to psp/ ds..hahas..then stayed there till 11 plus plus..then come home..jiu online le lor..tuition was as great as usual but today kind of bored..maybe tat is zhiyu's fav..not mine..lol..

I LOVE YOU AND I THINK YOU KNEW IT !

2008-05-10T09:24:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?*
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?*
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*People live, but people die.
I want to tell you thatyou are a friend.If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

i'm in love with tat special person in my heart tat i wish tat i will have the courage to say all tat to him..

2008-05-09T03:11:00.000-07:00

ok..it be like ages since i blog in detail.so okay..i shall blog in detail today..

ok..my class went to little india for the field trip which is ~ok ok ~ lah..hahas..we have a great hell fun there lah..before going to the trip was mr anba's talk ..was kind of boring but esther and me was like talking all the way and trying to fake tat we tuck in our shirt ..lol..oh ya..and that gun story rawks...then stupid lah..
when boarding the bus tat time
liang sia was like ..
"like that use pin to make the shirt also can meh ?"
me:"wadever lah.she don find out can le"
liang sia:" ok.i go tell her.."
me:"..."
liang sia:"okok..i won't tell her..later *ahem* come beat me "
me:"wat the hell"

hahas..then sat with esther on the bus..talk..crap..then ~blah blah blah~
henna's time !! hahas..then ~blah blah blah~ we board the bus and on our way to SCHOOL..LOL..then when to eat lunch with shermane sook chin and joel..then after that went to the playground then jiu went to shermane's house with shermane only..very very long nvr go her house le..hahas..then well..i took a nap at shermane house..i super tired..so shermane is so nice of her..hahas.
I LOVE SHERMANE !

I LOVE HIM..i hope you know every little thing i do is for you..

queenie was here (:

2008-05-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

Seok kee love her DUMBDUMB GIRLFRIEND :D
Seok kee love her ANGMOH GIRLFRIEND :D

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
xDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxDxD

YES!
queenie && salanne was HERE!!
zhiyu is NOT here =//

:D

SEOK KEE LOVES xxx ME!

2008-05-03T07:59:00.000-07:00

i so happy tat the exam are going to be over soon..but i'm gonna fail my maths again..wadthehell..history was kind of argh!!!!..suppose to do 2 out of 3 i did all 3..then in the end not enough time to finish..got one question i wrote " i agree with this statement to a large extend" and the teacher say time's out...grrrrr..tat question was like 7 marks ? went tuition today..for science but we ended our sience test and other not yet so we are quite slacking there..hahas..first time mr chin never ask us to answer any question ..super slack..but some gal was like aa all the way lah..both of us agree tat over acting make her look like a retard.then we was talking about that one person..ok actually is 2 lah..make me feel so..i don know how to say lah..but anyway..i don wan to snatch you from other people tat i know might be still in love you.i might as well give up..i hope you will tell me you love me too..but tat's just an illusion..

i hope you can stop me from giving up, xxx

2008-05-02T06:43:00.001-07:00

i think the reason why i advoided you was to afraid that u might tell me things that i don even wan to heard you talk about..i was afraid..i'm not acting as usual when i see you.. i admire those ppl who dare goes up to the ppl they like and say " hey .u know wat ? i love you.."

~i think i in love with you, xxx~

rsw ..don think too much..

2008-05-01T05:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday b4 tuition queenie shermane and sook chin came my house..then aft tat hui ni and lydia came..play like mad..and my dog is CUTE !!..hahas..then after tat queenie and sook chin and huini need to leave to leave le..so left me and shermane..so we decided to go for a walk..actually is i force shermane de..hahas..then meet zhiyu and queenie( she came back)..then come up..play again..esp zhiyu and shermane..they were ......don know how to say lah..lol..but queenie and i were lucky we are NOT part of it..hahas..then walk to tuition..long way but we were relaxing ..hahas..tuition at blk 468..hahas..on the way javier message say saw me then i was like "lol "..then end tuition at 9.30..kind of scary there..

~i love you , *** ~

2008-04-24T03:21:00.000-07:00

wa..today lce topic damm cool lah..PDA ( public display of affections )..then when they don know talk about wat the wee young was like "don let that , seok kee will scold me de " or something like tat..then i was like..super pai seh lah..everybody was like laughing and ~woah~..then now is scare the mdm png go call my parents lah..cause wee young they all is only joking de lor..but after they say right mdm png was like keep looking at me lah..then after sch faster go out of mdm png's sight just in case she come ask me..lol..then today must clear finish the things under my table..so my bag was heavy..thanks ryan for helping me to take.even though his arms and ahem hurts.than ryan me and queenie went to zhiyu house downstair do work wait for zhiyu lah..then after that zhiyu and queenie went for tuition at 468 then ryan and me take bus home..nxt wed is my turn for tuition with them and shermane..and is still NIGHT TUITION until 9.30..i'm going home on my own..sadded..

i hope you know i love you
i hope we were as good as they say we are.

2008-04-21T04:22:00.000-07:00

ok..well..the last two post is posted by shermane and zhiyu at zhiyu house..wadever they say are just crap lah..don listen to them..lol..

i wonder if u know

2008-04-21T02:57:00.001-07:00

HELLOs:]
shermane here
okay...we saw someone today and she was like -.-
and then white white a.k.a bai bai was like WHOA
and then we had a great time avoiding her/him
so in the end we DID go to zhi yu jia and thats how i ended my post here
;]
okay the funniest part was when zhi yu's eyes widen and seok kee never lian qing chun bai
cause she saw QING QING a.k.a green green
okay and thats how the story started and i started to think that the purple lover should chaNGED TO green green lr

2008-04-21T02:48:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY SECRETARY BOYFRIEND(:

-posted by me, her secretary boyfriend a.k.a ZHIYU;D

2008-04-18T23:13:00.000-07:00

things wasn't going the i wanted it to be in..i'm kinda sad..and i won be telling whoever who i like and stop asking me whether i like tat person..somehow i just don wish the whole rumors thing started..maybe i do care about it..

i'm sad when i sense tat u don care.
i'm sad when u walk right past me without a "hi!"
i'm sad when u don stand up for me like u used to anymore...

2008-04-15T05:40:00.001-07:00

i'm in love with you..but only if u know.

2008-04-14T06:17:00.000-07:00

sometime i just wish tat the time time will stop when i can't cope..i feel like i'm like the most dumb person lah..i think i might as well just fail every subject and fordet about being in express class and go to normal..i might as well..

i'd rather have bad times with you then good times with someone else.
i'd rather be beside u in a storm then safe and warm by myself.

2008-04-12T04:46:00.000-07:00

everyone keep telling me i've change.actually i've finally started acting like ME..

2008-04-07T05:33:00.000-07:00

sat went with zhiyu to tuition but before going out the house then found out i injured my own stupid hand and i don know why and how i'm injured until my cousin told me my hand is bleeding..guess i wasn't forcusing tis few days ba..lol..anyway..thanks zhiyu for her plaster..but i think it was like somehow useless cause it's bleeding too much..lol..i think i must be real dumb today..frens was careful with my hands not to hurt me too much..but i somehow erm..hit it a few times myself ? lol..like everybody was like scolding me dumb..aft sch went to sch library then found out tat it will be close from 2.30 onwards because of hi musical..so went to study outside sch library until zhiyu end her netball..then tat queenie ar..ask her do one chinese work..she use like 45 mins to do 2 page ? lol..but i think she really learn something today lah..my effort is not down the drain...

i was sad when i notice you don care about me

2008-04-04T06:18:00.000-07:00

why is everybody saying i'm not myself today ? maybe tat's who i am..today maths test..okok only..then after maths test rush down to np training..i just kind of be myself ? i don know..but like everybody was like wondering wat happening to me ..shermane pei me take bus home..thanks..then reach my house tat side..saw jian le they all..all talk to me ..i don really wan to talk ..so was like ignoring them ?

SORRY GUYS !

i don mean it ..bt i don know wat's happening to me..i think is time to take off tat mask and see who am i truely..

2008-04-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

WAT IS YOUR PROBLEM ? i talk u ask me to shut up..i don talk u say i don care about the whole family ..think it through your damm brain lah..from now on..i don wanna care about it anymore..i noe it's all because of my result but since when u ever started noticing my result until i fail ? i fail u say lots of crap..but did u ever say a "good job" when i pass ?u say u did everything for me..but think about it..u did nothin for me..u did things to make me feel bad..the toughest moment of my life i had to go through it myself..have u ever thought tat wat going on ? the mask on my face seems impossible to take it off ..i think i'm gonna break down soon enough..